February 2012
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Oh heeeeeeey.  It’s been a hot minute, hasn’t it?  I’ve missed you, Tumblr! Earlier this year I was working towards a hot bod in Vegas.  I lost a few pounds and felt great.  When I came home from Vegas, I stopped caring.  And now, I’m back to square one.  180 pounds.  Arg. Well, I’ve done a lot of reading this morning.  I read my Tumblr from the beginning, and...
Feb 11th
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January 2012
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I’ve never felt so Inadequate/unattractive in my whole life. I thought losing weight would change that and boost my confidence. Oh how I was wrong. I fucking hate my life sometimes.
Jan 29th
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Jan 26th
Jan 24th
Just finished my Crossfit intro session. I am...
That was fucking hard!
Jan 24th
So I tried on some summer clothes today...
And it wasn’t pretty.  I wanted to try everything on before I packed for Vegas so I knew what fits.  I knew some things would be tight, but I didn’t think it would be as bad as it was.  My shorts and pants from the summer don’t fit.  My jeans that used to be loose won’t do up.  I knew I gained weight- the scale said it and I could feel it on my body.  But I didn’t...
Jan 23rd
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WIW: The Starting Over [again] Edition
Starting Weight: 225  Last WIW: 180 (previous starting weight) Current Weight: 178 Goal Weight: 140  Total loss: 47 pounds I really don’t think I can put into words how painful it is to go back and read my old WIW posts.  I celebrated my 50 pound loss in November of 2010, and 2011 was really just a shit-show for me.  I got confident, got cocky, and got comfortable.  And it has affected me...
Jan 18th
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TryingToLose: Reblog so people know who you are. →
operation-weight-loss: Name: Natalie Tumblr Name: Trying To Lose Nickname(s): Nat, Gross, Gross-face (all plays on my last name, ha) Birthday: August 23, 1987 Relationship Status: Single. Random fact about you: I’ve climbed the CN Tower in Toronto.  22 minutes, bitches. Hobbies/Interests:  Reading, shopping, watching movies, eating good meals with friends, traveling, musicals,...
Jan 18th
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Jan 18th
Weigh-A-Day...
Is over.  I fluctuate wayyyy too much on a daily basis for this process to be helpful to me.  All it does is give me major mood swings: euphoria when I lose a pound, misery when I gain.  I’m going back to weighing in once a week for my sanity. Oh, and I’m coming up hard on shark week which is causing me to be a massive bitch combined with bouts of hating my life.  I love being a girl.
Jan 17th
Weigh-A-Day!
01/04/2012: 180 … 01/15/2012: Forgot 01/15/2012: 177.5 I feel good about this.  Natch, I feel GREAT about this.  I ate like shit all weekend so to see the scale go down makes me so happy.  Today has been a good day so far- I’m heading to spin tonight and then out for dinner with some girlfriends.  I’m going to make Monday count!
Jan 16th
Weigh-A-Day!
01/04/2012: 180 01/05/2012: 177.5 01/06/2012: 177.5 01/07/2012: 179.0 01/08/2012: 179.0 01/09/2012: 180.0 01/10/2012: 178.0 01/11/2012: Forgot… whoops 01/12/2012: 179 01/13/2012: 177.5 01/14/2012: 178 Can’t really complain seeing as I didn’t work out yesterday and ate a second dinner around 10. It was a stupid move but I was starving and it was all healthy. The real NSV...
Jan 14th
Weigh-A-Day!
01/04/2012: 180 01/05/2012: 177.5 01/06/2012: 177.5 01/07/2012: 179.0 01/08/2012: 179.0 01/09/2012: 180.0 01/10/2012: 178.0 01/11/2012: Forgot… whoops 01/12/2012: 179 01/13/2012: 177.5 Wooo hooooo!  Lets hope I get below 177.5 by the end of the weekend.  I find that my problem days are usually on the weekend when I have nothing to do and want to occupy my time, so I do that with eating. ...
Jan 13th
Jan 13th
Weigh-A-Day!
01/04/2012: 180 01/05/2012: 177.5 01/06/2012: 177.5 01/07/2012: 179.0 01/08/2012: 179.0 01/09/2012: 180.0 01/10/2012: 178.0 01/11/2012: Forgot… whoops 01/12/2012: 179 It went up… arg.  I have a really gross/TMI question that I’m going to put behind a cut.  If you’re a fan of gross/TMI questions, read on, reada! So every morning I poop and then do my weigh-in.  But...
Jan 12th
Jan 11th
crossfitpete asked: Keep up the good work! Just stay constant and you will get to your goal weight! But remember the scale doesn't tell you everything!
Jan 11th
stephintolife asked: I'm glad my post could help. Getting in the door the first time is the hardest part... just remember that they WILL scale it for you and just remember if even the fittest people there aren't grunting and cussing at the end of a WOD they probably aren't pushing themselves like they should. Can't wait to read about your CrossFitting experience!
Jan 11th
Jan 11th
Holy crap... I want to eat all the things! Must...
Oy.
Jan 11th
swaybe: For some reason when the gym is crazy-ass busy in January I feel the need to justify myself. I should get a shirt that says ’I come here often! This isn’t just a New Years phase! I’M A REGULAR’. ~cares too much what others think~** yup.
Jan 11th
Weigh-A-Day
01/04/2012: 180 01/05/2012: 177.5 01/06/2012: 177.5 01/07/2012: 179.0 01/08/2012: 179.0 01/09/2012: 180.0 01/10/2012: 178.0 Let’s hope that this is the end of the yo-yo-ing! I just want the scale to go down! My Fitness Pal has really helped me in terms of knowing my calorie intake versus what I should be intaking. Let’s hope that it continues helping!
Jan 10th
Jan 9th
Weigh-a-day
01/04/2012: 180 01/05/2012: 177.5 01/06/2012: 177.5 01/07/2012: 179.0 01/08/2012: 179.0 01/09/2012: 180.0 Not too sure what happened there- granted I didn’t work out yesterday but I ate well, drank a ton of water and got a lot of sleep. Weird. I got the my fitness pal app and so far Im loving it- I’m going to start tracking everything I eat/workout and hopefully I can see...
Jan 9th
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Weigh-A-Day
01/04/2012: 180 01/05/2012: 177.5 01/06/2012: 177.5 01/07/2012: 179.0 01/08/2012: 179.0 I definitely deserve that- had McDonald’s after the bar. Today is a detox day. I’m drinking tons of water and I’m going to head out for a run later on. I need to start my week off right.
Jan 8th
Weigh-A-Day
01/04/2012: 180 01/05/2012: 177.5 01/06/2012: 177.5 01/07/2012. 179.0 That sucked, but I deserved it. Yesterday was a rest/cheat meal day. I relaxed and went for delicious sushi. Then I met a friend for drinks and a movie and I had a few appetisers. I definitely shouldn’t have eaten the apps but I did anyways and I totally regret it. Today I went for Zumba and have kept my...
Jan 7th
Weigh-A-Day!
01/04/2012: 180 01/05/2012: 177.5 01/06/2012: 177.5 I’m not really surprised I didn’t move on the scale, a 2.5 pound drop in one day was definitely too good to be true.  But I am really in control of everything again, and it feels great.  I worked out three days in a row this week and I’m taking today as a rest day because I am so sore I can’t even handle it.  My stomach...
Jan 6th
Step(h) into Life: 3 full months... →
stephintolife: I started CrossFit on October 4th. Talking to my mom yesterday made me realize that the shock they are having over seeing me lift all the heavy things, is the same reaction I had 3 months ago lifting all the heavy things… so here are some things I used to think (that first month) and what I… This is amazing. It made me a little less nervous about going to CrossFit on...
Jan 6th
Monday at 7 I’m going to an introductory session at my local CrossFit box. I am puuuumped!
Jan 6th
So far, 2012 has...
been a mixed bag and were only 5 days in.  The Good - booked a trip to Las Vegas!  January 26th-January 30th.  It is going to be a shit show. - I’ve been on track with my eating and working out and its shown on the scale.  160’s, I’m comin’ for ya! - I’ve almost completely paid off my credit card. - I’m about to sign-up for a 10K in May.  Ahh. The Bad -...
Jan 5th
Weigh-A-Day!
01/04/2012: 180 01/05/2012: 177.5
Jan 5th
Weigh-A-Day
I need a way to be kept accountable.  A way to ensure that I don’t fuck up.  I’ve seen a few bloggers do a “weigh-a-day” and its really helped them stay on track, so I’m doing the same.  Today’s weigh-in was the highest i’ve seen yet, and ironically comes after a day of perfect eating and a spin class.  Fuck.  But, i’m not discouraged. 01/04/2012:...
Jan 4th
I was looking at some old posts and saw one from July.  I was 163 pounds.  I am up almost 20 pounds sincer July.  What the fucking fuck?  This ends.  Now.  I promised myself that I would never get back to the way I was, and it has happened. This is what happens when I have too much time on my hands.  I get lazy, and then I eat.  Fuck me. I’m DONE with yoyo-ing.  I’m getting my ass in...
Jan 2nd
2012: Resolutions
I was tempted to make this private because all my resolutions aren’t health related, but I figured you all be the best people to hold me accountable.  SO, here goes… 1) Reach my goal weight of 140 pounds.  Because, well, obviously. 2) Put more effort into my appearance.  I spend a lot of time in sweatpants with my hair up, and that is due in part to my extremely casual work...
Jan 2nd
December 2011
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There really is no better time...
To start over. I will be the first person to say that I have been a total crap-bag since November.  I’ve had a really rough few months, and the first thing to suffer has been my eating and working out.  I got a pair of jeans for Christmas.  Another pair of jeans I already had.  They were the same size and everything.  I tried them on last night and the didn’t fit.  Then I got on the...
Dec 31st
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Dec 26th
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Well its been a while...
Hi folks.  It sure has been a while.  I’ve been dealing with a lot of shit, so lets sum it up in point-form, shall we? My Nonna passed away at the end of November.  I had taken a week off work and went to NYC on the Sunday, found out she passed on Monday and came home on Tuesday.  The rest of the week was really rough.  I was extremely close to my Nonna and her passing, while not...
Dec 15th
November 2011
13 posts
why can’t I get up in the mornings? why is it so hard to lose weight? why didn’t I get my dream job? why is my sex/dating life completely nonexistent? why is it so hard to save money? why do I feel like my life is 5 steps behind everyone else? why can’t be grandparents be healthier? why do I have no willpower? why don’t I make more money? It’s just one of...
Nov 19th
WIW
Starting Weight: 225 Last WIW: 173.5 Current Weight: 172 Difference:  -1.5 Goal Weight: 140  Total loss: 53.5 pounds Glad i’m approaching the 160’s again.  Goal is to be below 170 by next WIW.  I hate that I’m re-losing pounds that I’ve already lost, and it makes me want to get them off for good this time.  That being said, I found out today that I didn’t get a job...
Nov 16th
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Nov 11th
10/11/2011
Breakfast - wrap w/ egg and bacon Lunch - tomato soup - flax seed bun - quinoa salad Dinner - 6 inch turkey breast sub on whole wheat w/ cheese, veggies and mustard - apple Workout - spinning
Nov 11th
WIW: The WTF Edition
Starting Weight: 225 Last WIW: 169.5 Current Weight: 173.5 Difference:  +4 Goal Weight: 140  Total loss: 52 pounds All together now… WHAT THE FUCK?  I get back on track and I gain 4 pounds?!  My plan tonight is to head to the gym and take out all my frustrations on the treadmill.  Look out.
Nov 9th
08/11/2011
Breakfast -peanut butter toast - banana Lunch - chicken stir fry Snack - pineapple - sour cream and onion pop chips Dinner - steak quesedilla wrap Snack - caramel rice cake Workout - body attack (major cardio and major exhaustion ensued) Great day!
Nov 9th
04/11/2011
Breakfast - apple Lunch - 6 inch turkey breast sub - baked lays Snack - 3 mini chocolate bars - 1 viva puff pastry - hot dog Dinner - 1.5 pieces of salmon - green beans - white rice - a dinner roll Snack - peanut butter cookie - a few slices of salami - a few slices of Parmesan cheese - 4 crackers
Nov 5th
11/03/2011
Breakfast - granola bar Snack - pineapple and strawberries Lunch - Chili - flax seed bun - 1/2 a quinoa salad Dinner - 1/2 a chicken sandwich w/ sauce, cheese, peppers and onions - green olives Snack - cheesies - 2 mini chocolate bars - 1 slice of pizza shitty day = shitty eating.  back on the grind at the gym tomorrow!
Nov 4th
Saw 171.5 on the scale this morning… Exhibit A in why stuffing your face is a bad idea. FML.
Nov 3rd
11/02/2011
The day started off good… Breakfast - granola bar - yogurt w granola Lunch - pulled pork on a whole wheat bun Snack - pineapple and strawberries Dinner - Spinach feta wrap - banana And then it went bad… - small Wendy’s chili - spicy chicken wrap - 3 mini chocolate bars - a bunch of cheesies I made the really stupid decision of smoking a lot of Mary Jane...
Nov 3rd