Trying To Lose

Well its been a while…

Hi folks.  It sure has been a while.  I’ve been dealing with a lot of shit, so lets sum it up in point-form, shall we?

• My Nonna passed away at the end of November.  I had taken a week off work and went to NYC on the Sunday, found out she passed on Monday and came home on Tuesday.  The rest of the week was really rough.  I was extremely close to my Nonna and her passing, while not unexpected, was still really difficult.  I am just starting to get over it but I know the holidays won’t be very fun.
• We lost my major client at work so now I actually have no idea if/how long i’ll have my job for. 
• My Dad was hospitalized yesterday for a bleeding ulcer.
• I’ve gained like 10 pounds during what I fondly refer to as “hell month”

So, needless to say I haven’t been having a very easy holiday season.  I’ve been meaning to come and write a post, but every time I do I can’t find the words.  So, the four points up there pretty much sum up all the shit I’ve been dealing with for the past month.  I’m trying really hard to work-out and eat healthy, but my mojo is gone.  What gets me through is thinking about how my Nonna would want me to reach my goals, and how she was always my number one fan.  So, I’m starting over for the millionth time. 

I’ll weigh-in on Monday and go from there.  Wish me luck, guys.  And wish me luck in returning to the happy, care-free girl I was a month ago.  I miss her.